It's been years since I last posted anything here. Well, I'm back, and MAN
am I a different person than I used to be. I look back at my old writing from when I was a teenager, and it looks so cheesy to me now. I've got a career going now, I started living my life for ME
and not for a fictional being in the sky, and I feel a lot better about myself and the world around me.
I'll be going through my work and deleting the shittiest of what I find there. I'll be leaving up my past journal entries for posterity and to learn from my mistakes.
So, here's the straight skinny about what's changed in the echo-filled space between my ears:
- While I strongly believe that communism as envisioned by Marx is entirely possible in theory and the most efficient, humane and life-promoting way to run society, I also don't think humanity is ready for it (or worth it). People are scum. When people aren't scum, even those who stand to gain the most from a global redistribution of wealth are very hard to mobilize; and why shouldn't they be? When you ask someone to become a revolutionary, you are asking them to change their lifestyle and dedicate it to the cause...or die for it. One could rebut this apologism by mentioning that people are too weak and lazy for change. I wouldn't argue with that. I'm not going to write a wall of text; long story short, I won't be doing anything political anymore. Besides the above, why is that? Well, that leads to my next point...
- I've become a more selfish person in general, too selfish to live the revolution when I and the rest of my generation probably won't even live long enough to see it occur.
- I've forsaken Islam entirely in favor of LaVeyan Satanism. As I mentioned earlier, I live my life for me.
- My new focus on life is spending my limited time on this beautiful planet on self-improvement, as well as my own pleasures, interests, comforts, and personal goals.
I'll be writing some more poems here and there and posting the ones I've written and not posted gradually. I have not learned any other art forms at this time.